One of the things I’ve worked really hard at most of my life is not turning out like my mother. I didn’t want her small town life, her small town job, or her small town ideals. And more than anything, I didn’t want her health problems. I managed to fail at all of those things.
I ended up doing the same job she did, although I am finally doing that job in a larger city making more money than my mother could have ever dreamed of making. I never had her small town ideals, although when you live there for a while, those ideas can sometimes creep in. However the biggest failure is that I totally have her health problems. I’ve been ashamed to say it for a few years, I ignored it, I pretended it would just go away, but the truth is I’m diabetic. I ignored my own health to focus on hers, and that wasn’t right. And now, it’s been almost two years since she’s been gone, and my own health has fully freaked me out!
But, unlike my mother, I’m not going to ignore it and avoid it until I have no choice but to take insulin. I don’t want to lose my eye sight, or a limb, or the function of my kidneys. So, 43 days ago, I went to see a doctor and got a bunch of labs done and started a weight loss program that will help get my pancreas the break it needs. I’ve started tracking my progress on another blog, Ideal Michele, so check it out if you’re curious what I’m doing to get better.
I hate that it took a scare of a super high blood sugar reading to have me finally focus on this. I hate that I’ve let myself get to the point where blood sugar is even an issue. I spent a lot of time beating myself up. But now, I realize that I can beat this thing! That it’s not a death sentence. It’s a wake up call! And I can be the change I want for my life, and I can make that change happen now!
If you’re so inclined, check out my other blog, follow it, and feel free to leave supportive comments for me, as I can use all the inspiration and support I can get!
I don’t have to end up like my mother, with dialysis and numerous meds as my quality of life. I’m still young enough to fix this, and her fate doesn’t have to be mine unless I want it to be. And I do not!
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Ciao for now,