So, one of the things I do to keep myself grounded and healthy is to do Reiki. I have a wonderful woman who performs Reiki on me, and I truly do love it. (If you’d like her details, let me know). Anyway, of all my sessions, one thing she says to me every time is, “Your spirit guides are always trying to guide you and give you hints, and you ignore them. You need to listen to that voice inside you that is trying to guide you. Yet, you discard things that show themselves to you every day, and if you’d stop doing that, and pay attention to those things, it would help you find what you’re looking for.”
And I believe that she’s right. However, hard habits are tough to break. So, that being said, I’ve been trying to listen to that little voice more, and pay attention to signs around me. And holy crap, if it isn’t working!
The past two weeks have been tough for me on this crazy high protein diet I’ve been on. I’ve had no interest in eating. I haven’t felt well. I’ve been moody and cranky. I have had no energy, and have been battling myself with wanting to quit. I’ve been arguing with myself because I saw the urge to quit as a weakness. As my giving up on a tool that will help me lose weight and get to a healthier, slimmer me. I didn’t want to quit yet another diet. I wanted to finish what I started.
But no matter how often I argued, that little voice inside got louder and louder. And it wasn’t saying ‘eat junk food’ or ‘you need to stop!’. When I took a breath and listened, what it was saying is, “This isn’t the right path for you. It got you started, which is great. But it’s time for you to move!” And that’s what I’ve been feeling. I am really wanting to workout, and this diet plan doesn’t allow for that. And while it’s an extreme fix for an immediate health concern, I really need a plan that allows me to move! And I heard my body loud and clear on this yesterday.
I had to carry a bunch of stuff from one building to another at work yesterday, and by the end of the day my arms were so sore. I’m not used to being that weak! I’m not used to getting out of breath from a 10min walk, slightly uphill from my car to my office. While I might be getting thinner, I’m definitely NOT getting fitter, and I’ve been feeling this way for a few weeks.
Now, on my social media newsfeeds, one thing kept popping up over and over again. A link to Krav Maga Seattle. It’s been everywhere, and last night, I clicked on the link. And something told me that this is where the next phase of my path to a better, healthier me is supposed to go! Not only do they teach Krav Maga, which I’ve always wanted to try, but they offer heavy bag classes, HIIT training, and yoga! It’s like one stop shopping for all the workout types I love. And as many struggles as I’ve had lately, being able to smack the crap out of a heavy bag as many times a week as I need/want to, sounds awesome!
I spent last night soul searching. Should I shift from Ideal Protein to Krav Maga? Is this the right move for me? I emailed my doctor, who of course wants me to stay on Ideal Protein. is convinced that’s what I need to do. And when I woke up this morning, this horoscope was waiting for me:
My hope is that my doctor only has my health in mind, but that is one expensive diet plan, so that may be a motivator as well. Either way, my gut is telling me it’s time to find a better solution. One where I sweat! one where I eat balanced meals for every meal. One where I feel good every day and not bored, frustrated, weak, and lethargic! I’m not abandoning my plan to get healthy. I’m just changing my course of how to get there!
My first class is on Saturday. And I’m really excited to start this new journey. I am going to listen to the that inner voice. I’m not going to regret changing my mind or tactic! If nothing else, this journey is teaching me to trust myself more. That’s what my Reiki Guru is always telling me. To trust myself more. So, that’s what I’m going to do.
Breadcrumb definitely found!
Ciao for now,